A snippit of Peacy’s story (March 10, 2011):
About an hour after sunrise, I feel a swelling in the birth canal. This is such a powerful moment – I can really feel her – she is so close! Somehow, through all those months of her growing inside of me, it never really hit me that she was real – now it hits me! The contractions are so intense that I don’t even really feel them, (or at least that is what my memory tells me!) I am in the most beautiful trance – I can feel her so close!! Soon, I feel her pushing against the wall of my vagina – her door to the world. I put my hand back to feel her. So incredible! I can feel her! But… is that her? It doesn’t feel like a head! I ask Joey to look. He agrees – it doesn’t look like a head, or like any part of a baby. It looks like a membrane. Then I realize my waters never broke! It’s the caul! She keeps going back up inside me and then pushing back down. I can feel her with my hand, and I feel like I’m stretching as much as I can. I even try pushing her out, but she’s not even close to crowning.
I ask Joey to look in our copy of “Spiritual Midwifery” to see if he can find anything about what’s happening. I want to know if it’s ok for us to break the caul, or if I should just keep trying with the caul intact. Joey reads for a bit, while Peacy keeps going in and out. He finds something on late rupture of membranes, but nothing helpful. I ask him to break the caul – he uses his fingernail and breaks it. Relief! Instantly I feel freer, and can tell that Peacy does too. Her head starts to crown!
A snippet of Micah’s story (December 8, 2012):
Things speed up so quickly! I hadn’t realized how much inhibition I had been feeling. Now I am alone – I feel completely safe and unreserved – Ireally am able to let go, and it is so, so, so powerful!!! It is a beautiful blur! Contractions are coming one after another, and so strong. I realize the bathroom is not where I want to be.
I leave the bath and head out into the rest of the house. There is a candle burning – it is luminous, swirling. The whole house seems to swirl around me. I am rocked by such a powerful contraction as I am walking, and it brings me to my knees. It is mind-blowing. I don’t feel in control of my body – it seems to have an intelligence so far beyond my mind! Micah is coming so quickly!!!
I want access to the potty bucket. I feel like I have to go pee, but I don’t want to be in the bathroom. I feel super-human! Somehow, I manage to drag the whole potty bucket contraption and a bunch of towels out of the bathroom and into the kitchen/living room through those infinitely powerful contractions! For some reason, I want to be right there by the couch. It feels so right. My body does this before I even have a second to think about it. I sit on the potty to go pee, but I jump up almost immediately, almost involuntarily, and then fall to the floor on my hands and knees. I feel him!! He is right there in the birth canal, so close!!
I smile with such joy!! I don’t remember ever in my life feeling so much joy and pure elation! I say his name, (for this time around, I know his name.) It feels like pure light flowing from my mouth as I say it, almost out of breath: “Micah Starlight Rowan Flower Frost!!!” My whole being is pure, blissful love. I say his name again, and there is another burst of infinite love! How can this get anymore beautiful?!!!! I call him again and again and again!
“Micah Starlight Rowan Flower Frost! Micah Starlight Rowan Flower Frost!!!”